losing weight

Okay, some might think this post will be ridiculous, so I will start with this: I know I am not fat. But I am trying really hard to lose some more weight and not have it be a temporary thing. I want to be toned. And I am really short, so extra weight looks pretty bad on me and not to mention it is a health risk.

My eating habits improved drastically since last year and I lost eighteen pounds. But I'm still really pudgy in some places. And, my weight seems to fluctuate more than a politician's opinion. One week I weigh 129 lbs and I wake up with washboard abs, and the next week I feel like I weigh a whole ton.

I have no access to any weight training machines... only a treadmill and two stationary bikes. I get headaches which last for two days (beginning to think they are migraines after my Dad's experiences) and interfere with my desire to go work out. I have exercise-induced asthma which kicks in seriously any time I exercise outdoors. I use caffeine pretty much daily to push through my morning allergy fog. And I want to train to run a 10k with my sister. I've come to realize I am really UNHEALTHY! I need some advice for motivation, and I suppose I need to go to the doctor to resolve the asthma.

I want to stop feeling squishy and start feeling amazing. Hopefully writing this and reading it periodically will help me keep track. I can look back on my high school days where I ran several miles some weekends just to relax... man, I was so skinny...